I am fealing sick… and Shakes and Danny hung out with me today. I made up a little poem about Shakes and he liked it, so I’m posting it here. Love ya bro.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

You’ll listen to Shakes,

 If you know what’s good for you.

His lips are quite soft,

 But his hand can be hard.

If it pummels your bum,

It’ll be bright red marred.

He wants you to write,

And if you do not,

Out of your body,

He’ll beat the snot.

Danny’s his slave,

 Knelt down on the floor.

He’ll take quite a beating,

And then ask for more.

He’s smart and he’s sexy,

And handsome for sure.

His gaze melts my heart,

I wanna be his whore.

Sometimes I do wish,

That I’m knelt at his feet.

Looking up at his face,

And licking his meat.

Anyway… I may be more out of it then I thought, but cool poem, huh?

I am still around, no need to worry. I do feel very disscontected though. School has been hard… lifr has been hard… and I so dearly miss my brothers and my friends. It seems like forever since I have talking to Shakes… and I have been sick the past few days… and I just miss everyone. I wish I felt like myself.

Anyway… I am still alive though.

~Chance, as in mess with me and you don’t have one~

I’ll be having surgery today (Tue) and I’m scared about it. It’s kinda late… but I just wanna say it’s not too serious. They are taking a lump out from under my skin. I am very scared of needles and doctors and stuff though. I want my brothers with me so much… I want them. But… we don’t always get what we want. Just… everyone think ’bout me, kay? Cause… I’m scared. Lots ann lots.

Again Shakes wants me to post… and again I am here. It’s not that I am unwilling to do it on my own, I just don’t think I have a lot to say sometimes that would really interest anyone else. However, Shakes made some vague threats about what might happen to me if I don’t post in the next 24 hours, and I don’t want to risk it. Even better he promised I’d get a cuddle if I did like he asks. There’s the sign of a good brother for you, motivation with both fear and cuddling at the same time! My kinda bro.

Not much goin’ on. Shakes and I got a little time to talk today all alone and that was nice. I don’t get to see him a whole lot because of our schedules, so it’s nice to have some one on one time. Danny and I see each other lots at night, but usually only for a bit before he has ta go eat lunch and I have to go to sleep. I dream about him though so it’s kinda like he’s there with me!

I’m suddenly very broke again. Once in a while I am able to get some $L and live it up for a while, but I am under $L 1000 again so I need to be careful how I spend. I am prone to buying things without thinking it through entirely… or getting gifts for friends and family. I’d just as soon use my money to get someone close to me something to make them happy as I would to buy a new pair of crutches and a leg cast like I did the other night. Why? Well I can only hope I brake my leg sometime soon. I just can’t help myself from collecting cars and clothes and such. SL has so many wonderful things you don’t see anywhere else, but when you do it’s like you want to have it.

Giant penis that attacks people when you rez it? Check.

Hovering bike that looks like a pussy? Check.

Giant flying space craft that you could live in and has it’s own ring transportation system. Check.

Sex toys. Actual toys. Diapers. Swords. Small flying dragons. House sized teddy bear. Hypnotism device. All check!

It’s truly obscene the kind of things you can get, but in a good way! Heck you can even buy and sell people, and don’t think I have not given it a little thought. You could bounce a quarter off my bum. It’s so tight when I fart Dolphins come to mate with me! Well… you get the idea. I could probably make a pretty penny with myself.

Maybe that’s how I’ll solve my money problem. I’ll start selling my self out to Shakes for extra allowance money. Heck, I don’t even get one now. I bet that would change with a few well placed kisses though. Hehehe.

Well, that’s it for now. Hope I have not been too boring, and if you’re looking for a good time give me a call at…

~Chance, as in mess with me and you don’t have one~

Shakes wants me to blog more, and I’ll pretty much do anything he wants me too, so I’ll try.

I got to see him today and it made me really happy. I said in the last entry I was scared of him forgetting me. I have just grown so attached to him and Danny and Pix and I know I’m not there as much as they or I want. I know it’s stupid to feel like that, cause family is supposed to be forever… but in the past that has not been the case and once burned, twice shy.

Hmmmm, I never thought of that til just now, not really. I mean, I knew I was worried, but I didn’t really think about the fact that it’s because I’ve lost family before. I don’t think people would live me, but I guess I just need to be shown sometimes. But then it’s not like we have been together for so long that I should be expecting any grand acts. I donno.

Today I got to know and hang out with Tak some. I like him. For a little while he, Shakes and I were hanging out, but then I think I kinda interrupted some personal time with them. I never wanna intrude or anything, but especially not them. Have you seen Tak? Those teeth. He says he doesn’t eat anyone, but I don’t wanna tempt him. What if he goes for something important like my fingers… or winkie! That’d suck. I need those for all kinds of things!

I mean… I guess I don’t think he’d really do that, but I still got the sense he wanted too when I gave my big bro a hug. Anyway…

I did get to talk to Shakes some Big to Big and that was mostly nice, but he can be a really blunt investigator when he’s trying to learn about you. I don’t mind that much though cause I really wanna get to know him and be friends and brothers and just… close.

Some people don’t like that I wanna be close all the time, but I can’t help it! When I see someone I care about I just want to hug them and never let go. I want to sit with them just snuggle under the crook of their arm and stay there forever. I wanna give them kisses and hugs and do whatever they want to make them happy. When I’m with someone bigger I like being held, especially in one of my younger forms. I am always 12 when I’m with Shakes and Pix and Danny but I can make myself younger if I want and when I do I love being held.

I don’t know why it’s so important to me… and I am sure it bothers some people, but I just… love my family so much and I want to show them.

Anyway, that’s it for now. I was gonna say more, but I’ll save it for later. If my family does read this, I love ya all.

Probably no one is even reading this anymore cause I only posted one thing, and I am really tried right now… but I just miss my SL family. I wanna be with Shakes and Pix and Danny and just be happy and I’m scared they might forget about me because I have not seen them very much lately… but I just wish I could be there with them right now. Some stuff is kinda scary for me in RL and it makes me feel needy, like I want someone to just hug me and make it all better. If any of you are reading this… I haven’t forgotten about any of you and I want to hang out more and I’ll do my best to be here when you guys are here.

*Sighs and wishes he was more coherent and less tired and that he had his brothers or sister to cuddle up with as he drifts to sleep*

Get ready world because whether you are or not, I’m here!

The name’s Chance, as in f**k with me and you don’t have one. 

Now that we have that out of the way. I’m 12 years old and in live in SL. Or I guess you could say I’m 8… even 6. I guess my age is kind of complicated, but I’m not. I love my family and friends and I’ll do anything I can to make them happy and keep them safe. So as long as you don’t mean any trouble to them or me, you don’t have to worry about the first sentence.  

 Most anyone reading this probably knows my vitals, but I gotta have some kind of beginning, right? My new brother Shakes asked me to create this blog (and even tempted me to do so) so why don’t we start with him? Well lets just start with family in general. 

 I have lived in Second Life for a long time but I wasn’t always the person I am now. For the last 2 year or so however I’ve been a boy and a ‘dorable one at that. My reentry into everyday life in SL started with my brother, or at least he was at the time. We were twins and I was as close to him. I cared about him so much and I wanted to do everything I could to be a good brother. I could go on and describe the times we had together, but that’s in the past and this is about the future.  

 He left me as a brother and once again I was on my own. I did however have a few friends and one boy in particular who was always kind to me. His name is
Austin and after a long time of knowing each other I was taken into his family and we became brothers. He went on to become the partner of another friend of mine, Tomas, who then became my second brother. Both of them are awesome and not only made me feel welcomed in SL but loved and cared for.  

Along with them I suddenly had a whole slew of mostly older brothers who were part of this “family,” the Harmasons. If I were going by family name alone I’d probably have like 50 brothers right now as the Harms (nick named as such because they seem to have a knack for causing it) pick up stray children in SL like they are house pets. I don’t doubt some of those strays have enjoyed themselves and feel part of the family, but they have hurt many of my friends and I do not feel close to them.  

As I mentioned there are lots of boys in the family, but in a place like SL, family name alone can not bind you like brothers, there has to be more. I more recently met Daniel and from the moment I did I knew there was something special about him. Through him I met Shakes who I seemed to share an equally close connection too. The two of them together are something special as anyone can notice if you spend some time with them.  

I wanted to be closer to them and build on the connection we had so Shakes and I started talking about me becoming his little brother. We’ve been talking about it back and forth for a while now and finally today we made it official. Now not only do I have Shakes as a brother but I have a new older sister, Pix! I could not be happier about it all. New family is always a time for celebration and I can only hope that all together my new family and I can grow closer and that I can be the best little brother I can possibly be! 

 I had intended to write more, but I got distracted in the middle and have lost my train of thought since I started this. I think it’s enough of a primer for now so you can either wait for my next post or ask me some questions you wanna know about me in my comments.  ~Chance~